By the time most of you read this, I’ll be on an airplane to Florida (and yes thieves, we have family watching the house … so don’t bother.)
This trip is a combination of many things:
– a chance to see my grandma and my best college friend for the first time in over a year
– my 20th high school reunion
– my 5th (or is it 6th?) girls reunion with my small group of high school girlfriends
– a visit with my parents (who we just saw on our cruise in June, but it’s always great to see the them)
– AND the first time I’ve been back since my friend Dina’s death
Yeah, ok so there’s the hard one. Or maybe not hard, just anxiety inducing.
For one, it’s the first time all us girls will be together to grieve her loss. I’m both looking forward to it GREATLY and dreading it. I know I’ll look into each of their eyes and feel a pain I often try to forget. And I’ll see it in them too. The hugs, tears and love will flow, that I have no doubt. But who knows what else may be lurking: guilt, anger, remorse? Emotions we’ll be able to explore together, but am I ready for it?
Most of all I’m scared because we’re meeting with Dina’s mom as well. I know this is very important for all of our healing, but I can’t imagine it will be easy.
The past 6 months she’s been gone have been both painful and wonderful. They’ve brought me to this blog, to you. And for YOU I am truly grateful.
These past 6 months have created a purpose in me that probably always existed, but had yet to make it to the surface. And for THAT I am also grateful.
As tears flow to the surface right now as I type, I know for certain this trip will be good but difficult. A reunion of tears, of dreams lost, and purpose renewed. Of joy and pain in the memories.
I thought that since I’ll be away and very busy the rest of the week, that it might be nice to highlight a few of the blog’s earlier posts, including some very important guest posts.
So stay tuned.
Thanks all, and please wish me luck. I need some virtual hugs for sure.
By the way, here’s my new Twitter avatar. If you’re on Twitter, please say hello anytime. @EllieAdorn