“You just started writing a 365 page book. Make it a page turner.”
This quote is from a dear friend, Brian Perry, a talented and inspirational singer, songwriter and speaker. He regularly posts these types of messages on his Facebook Page and Instagram written on the back of his van that he calls “Hindsight”. I just saw this one yesterday and it spoke to me so I wanted to share.
You see, over the past few weeks I haven’t been blogging. I’ve touched the computer maybe 2 or 3 times. I’ve avoided social media quite a bit. My husband and I have been sick most of the holidays and my energy has been quite low. I’m still fighting it in fact. Of course we did had fun over the holidays, which kept me busy too and I chose to focus on my family as much as possible.
But I’ve also not been feeling very balanced emotionally/mentally. I’ve been feeling a bit of depression creeping in. I’ve had moments of mania, where I just haven’t been able to shut off my brain. I’ve had insomnia, and a few days where I didn’t really get out of bed. A lot of that was because of being sick, but I’m also quite sure being depressed didn’t help.
I *think* I’m starting to come out of it a bit. Maybe. Ok, really I’m not quite sure. With the start of the New Year, and all the talk about resolutions and making 2014 “the best year yet!” I’ve still been feeling withdrawn, wanting mostly to dive into a book and disappear inside the story.
I have blogging things to do and I just don’t want to. I’m not feeling inspired or motivated. And I HATE IT when I get this way. I’ve purposely taken the break because of it, but I also know deep down its still important to keep going. And yesterday when I had a couple of hours without the kids (they both are finally back in school) I had a few twinges of inspiration. I saw the above image and was reminded that I do want to make the most of 2014. And sitting around feeling down and uninspired isn’t the way to do it.
So I’m trying to get back on the horse, so to speak … slowly.
Are you having a hard time getting back into the groove after the holidays. Does the New Year feel a bit daunting? I have so much to look forward to. Ellie’s 4th birthday coming up (at her request, she’s having a manicures and sushi party), a visit from my mom in February, a trip to Florida for our 10-year anniversary, and a trip to the Philippines to see my brother-in-law and soon-to-be sister-in-law get married.
Those sound like “page turner” sorts of things, don’t they?
And yet I still feel sad. I guess its time to talk to my doctor again.